It’s been a while since I’ve blogged anything.
The end of March was quite tough for me. I’d hurt my knee (no skyrim jokes please) and so couldn’t run for about four weeks. I got increasingly grumpy as my fitness leached away. I couldn’t do the forest of dean half marathon which I was really looking forward to.
I was also struggling creatively. I had an idea for a new writing project but I was putting it off. I told myself it was because I wanted to try a different approach, plotting in more detail before I started. I told myself that it was because I was trying a different POV to the ones I’ve got used to. Basically I was scared of it.
Around all of this I had some big career choices to make, which I was avoiding, in part because I genuinely had no idea what I wanted to do.
Oh and I played a lot* of Mass Effect 3.
Essentially it felt like everything got a bit stuck. Did I mention I was grumpy?
So here we are in April on the other side of Easter and I’ve been tentatively getting back into things. I’m gently building up my fitness again and so far my knee and I are going easy on each other. I’ve started a new writing project** which I’m going to approach slow and steady and I’m starting to reengage seriously with thoughts about ‘the future’.
But in all cases it feels like I’m having to be careful not to push myself too hard; and there’s still anxiety lurking in the shadows.
But look, I’m blogging again!
*A paragon and renegade playthrough plus 100% galactic readiness on multiplayer. I’ll leave it to you to decide if that’s a good thing or not.
**I’ve got a new progress bar to prove it.